I'm just the same but brand new.


Guys. It's high time I start getting things in order and up to speed! As I've said in a previous post, I'm  still transitioning and adjusting to my new life. I'm so thankful for all the sweet comments and emails I've received! But it also makes me question if I'm complaining too much or being overly dramatic about this period in my life. It's always been a real struggle (and real problem) of mine to not let my expectations of myself get too high. This can happen quick y'all.

I've once described myself as a highly-functioning depressed person.

And I said that to say, I can perform and do well in extreme situations (environmental and mental) but I've seen the results of doing that and it's not somewhere I'd like to visit again..ever. And gosh...we're all busy. We're all kind of super woman and barely (but still) juggling a million things (remember this post about the busy trap??).

I always want this blog to be a place of encouragement for others. This blog has helped me in so many ways but I still blog for other people (Gasp! Did I just break--out loud--the cardinal rule of blogging!?!?! More on that in another post.). So I'm leaving you guys with what I'm doing about my situation.

//I'm going to think of others. When you get into your own head it can be a bad thing. Turn the focus outwards.
//I'm going to do little things for myself (like that yummy breakfast from yesterday that's pictured above!).
//I'm going to become more physically active and be really good to my body. I'm not going to get mad at it anymore when my skinny jeans fit a little tighter than they used to. I'm going to do this for more energy and balance.
//I'm going to keep trying to give myself the grace that God and so many other people have given me.
//And speaking of God, I'm going to continually thank Him for all that I'm blessed with (especially when I feel like I'm not) and I'm going to make a better effort to find a church in this new city.

**Did you know He equips you with everything you need in any situation? Did you know when you don't know what to do or which direction to turn He can make the decisions for you? You just have to get reeeeeeeeeally good at sitting still and letting someone else take control (not such a natural inclination on my part!).

What are you going to do for yourself today (this week/year/life)?

**I try to stay respectful and open (in real life and this blog) to other people's beliefs. I want people with different backgrounds and lifestyles to feel welcome and comfortable here! I've gone through a huge journey with trying to figure out what I believe (and even when I didn't necessarily believe in God I still maintained that it was very important to have something to believe in ). Living a life according to what God wants is my personal decision but when relating and interacting with other people I want them to always feel that love and a mutual respect for others is a great and vast common ground. If you have a comment or thought that stays respectful I'd love to hear it, especially if it's different from mine.

8 comments:

Katherine / Corgis & Cocktails said...

for working out / getting healthy, i highly suggest blogilates.com - her videos and menus and stuff actually have me motivated to workout. and they are working me - i am actually sore from my arm workout yesterday and its weird to type. and doing little things like making a yummy breakfast is SO important and great.


and i live my life in a way where i just try to smile and be nice to everyone. it makes me a lot happier and less stressed


<3 katherine
of corgis and cocktails

Kyla said...

Good for you for taking time to do things for yourself! I find it highly respectable that you want to blog for others :)


Although I personally don't affiliate with any religion (I consider myself to be atheist), I definitely respect your views and the fact that you are open to other views as well. I've found some places on the internet where I don't feel welcome because of my beliefs, and I love that I can still come here and read your blog :) So kudos! I look forward to keep coming back in the future!

Melanie Lea said...

Kyla thanks for your thoughts and sweet words! I'm so thankful when you stop by and take the time to leave a nice comment : ) They always make my day!

Pony Chops said...

I can totally relate, I think depression & constantly setting higher and higher expectations is a burden that often comes with creativity. I just read that "Busy Trap" post and OMG I'm completely the same.

This is a great plan and I like your new rules. It's made me sit back and think maybe I should give myself a bit of breathing time too. So, what I'm going to do for myself is have at least 1 day a week away from work, the computer & stress.

PS, that breakfast is making me hungry! I blame you if I snack on carbs at this time of night hehe

Jessie {my mod style} said...

This is well written. Good for you for being honest and staying true to yourself and what you believe in. Every time I post about saving the planet or animals on my blog,....or being Vegan, (GASP!) I wonder what people think. I am being me though and it's my life. It's my voice about the things that are important to me. That's what blogging should be about for all of us. : ) I love the new blog look and I'm glad that I get to be part of it!!! Have a great weekend. Do something fun.

Kira said...

This looks like a great list of things I want to be doing too :)

Meghan said...

aw lady, I know how ya feel, though zi've never phrased it exactly as "high functioning" depression. zi always love your honesty, self examination and positive goals <3

Stephanie said...

I love this post. All of the things that you are trying to turn your focus on are so great. I understand the struggle with depression well and I know that focusing on other things and people can be such a huge help. I also know how much help I have received from God on that as well! I'm not always so good at listening or stopping to take a minute to talk to Him, but I hope I can really start to do better in that area of my life. <3

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